hey guys: here's a story about how to be really good at making big time, major, huge decisions:
last September i decided i was going to transfer to the U,
they have this sweet transfer scholarship, where they pay for everything if you have an associates & a 3.8 gpa or higher, so guess what i did?
i only took 2 math classes and english last year. Oh, but don't worry i still took out loan money to pay for it, that was SMART DECISION NUMBER 2. Quickly after decision 1 happened, i made SMART DECISION NUMBER 3: I applied to a bunch of different schools i wanted to transfer to, these included: Arizona State University (my DREAM school), Cal State Dominguez Hills, and the University of Utah. Through the application process I spent $200 on application fees. SMART DECISION 4: I missed the deadline to officially get my associates, and paid $50 to have the stupid thing printed. If you'd like a timeline, this was all completed sometime around march, then i start applying like crazy for scholarships from USU. SMART DECISION 5: then i decided i was gonna have the time in my life the last few months in logan, and grew awfully attached to my roommates & that tiny town. this made my decision making skills hard, so, just like my dad i made pro/con lists to make my decision.
and left them around the logan house so all my roommates could add/remove to them SMART DECISION 6: i received a scholarship letter in the mail, revealing that i, in fact, did NOT receive (for unknown reasons) the full ride scholarship, but a scholarship that made school the same price as USU, and i accepted, figuring i'd go anyways, I got all hyped up on the idea of going to the U. During all of this, please keep in mind that my $10,000 in student loans is always in the back of my mind. so, at this point in time i'm stoked to go to the U. At this point i was still a little torn, I love the people in logan, but i want to be in SLC so bad i can taste it. I realized i was being a total girl about this, so being the practical girl i am, i put my emotions aside and decide 100% to go to the U.
this decision was great, and when i got sad about leaving logan i just thought about the timeline of fun that goes down over the year in Logan, here's the jist of it:
so, my decision to go to the U was practical, and great, and i was thrilled about the U, then Kenzi Miller tells me the joyous news that she'll be joining me in SLC too!! this was working out better than i could have ever hoped for! I was worried about being the new, weird, tag a long girl who didn't drink, so Kenz coming would be even better! then I looked like this:
So i move home for the summer....and all of a sudden these big decisions catch up with me, then i look like this:
now, i have this huge pit in my stomach trying to make decisions for the next year of my life. as you can tell, my decision making skills....stink.
then something bad happens, a monster starts coming after me.
I'm for sure, still a girl, and despite being practical, i can only keep my emotions out for so long. I'm not a crier, i RARELY cry. besides on these occasions:
1. when the dad dies in Last Song, and then i realize that in reality i can't have Liam Hemsworth.
2. when extremely stressed
not only has all this been compounding for 6 months, my favorite girls are begging me to go back, kenzi bails on SLC, and then i get 2 phonecalls telling me i can't leave logan. I like to call this the straw that broke my mother flippin back.
so on thursday i start crying, come home from work, and my mom says
"why are you even going to the U? Just go where you're gonna be happy"- Mom
oh, it's that easy huh?
"you realize you can still go to the U your senior year, right?"- Mom
oh...yeah true.
"I'm better at making your life decisions than you are"-mom (okay it wasn't said, but still, it was obvious)
so thurrr ya go, after $250 wasted on applying to other schools, and stressing out everyday of my life, Looks like I'll be a Faggie next year:
hi, my name is Caitlin and i love doing things the hard way, take me seriously.
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